We Survived 2009

Sunrise

And, I can honestly say I'm glad it's almost over. I'm really looking forward to a fresh new year.

I have been hearing this a lot lately, how we should be grateful for trials. How we should thank God for each new challenge. How it will make us stronger. You never think that how the small things in life can mushroom into something much bigger than you could ever control. And, that's the thing – we don't control anything.

With 2009, from a personal picture, we have faced a lot that has caused us to look to the one who is control. Close relationships have been severed. I still feel mom guilt. Our decision for a place of worship hasn't been validated yet.

Yet, we still pray.

We still have hope.

I am convinced God will use us to be what He wants, not how others perceive we should be.

I believe in forgiveness. I believe in redemption. I believe in answered prayers. I believe we are allowed to hope because without that, in my heart there is nothing else that matters. I know 110% that my Rock will stand firm when I am shattered. God is good all the time, all the time God is good. I hear that – I see that – and I know that it's true. No matter what challenge I face, it is well.

I listen to that song on high volume to make it sink in. I want my soul to be still so I can hear Him speak.

The world throws us curve balls. Um, I'm sorry Lord, but I'm not really a baseball fan. The balls hit me and it hurt. But, the bruises heal. Maybe that's forgiveness? Maybe it's just a matter of letting God take control – real control. Have I mentioned I'm a control freak? When it comes to this world, I'm confident that God knows what He's doing yet I still want to give my $.02.

So, as 2009 closes, I am hopeful for what each new day brings. Whatever it brings. I will be His stubborn and beloved child.

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by Savings Lifestyle: Andrea on December 29, 2009

3 Comments

  • [email protected] Beauty and Bedlam - December 29, 2009 @ 7:17 pm
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    Amen and Amen…now I’m humming right along with you. God is good all the time, all the time He is good. We’ve had different trials this year (going on way too many months of unemployment), but still on the same journey with you.

  • Peoblem Solvin Mom - December 30, 2009 @ 9:23 am
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    I definitely feel like we were just survivng through much of 2009. Through the trials there were some truly amazing blessings too. That said, I am glad it’s almost over.

    Wishing you many blessings in the new year!

  • Kristin - December 30, 2009 @ 8:48 pm
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    For many of us 2009 has been a year of letting go and letting God. I too am a control freak, so that part is hard- the letting go adn relinquishing the control to Him. The last 5 years have taught me that sometimes God answers no, plain and simple. I’m a firm believer that God answers prayers but if He doesn’t want something to happen then it won’t happen no matter how hard we pray, beg, plead and try. Stubborn as I am, it takes awhile for that to sink in! In 2010, I’m hoping to learn to turn over my life completely to God and to remember more often that He knows what I need in my life more than I do. I’m telling you, when I come face to face with him I may be in trouble and get a good talkin’ to for all the back talk I have been gving him the last 5 years.

    I do have to say that my life has been full of more blessings than I ever thought it was, when I sat down and truly reflected upon it. I hit rock bottom, as far as most people can go, and have gotten back up with the God’s grace and love and the blessing of family he bestowed upon me.

    My goal for 2010 is to remember the blessings more often, and to surround myself with reminders of those blessings so that when the thoughts of trials and tribulations come up, I remember those instead and thank God for my life. My other goal is to do more to bless others, somehow, and return the love that has been given to me. It all sounds corny, but I’m one of those people who truly has to learn the hard way from her mistakes and then work her way up. Partly thanks to finding your blog, Andrea, I’m crawling back up! Luckily I’m stubborn and I dont’ make the same mistake twice, even when I learn the hard way. In 2010, I want to spend more time in worship, giving thanks, and helping others. In the end, when I meet my maker, I want to be able to say that I used every ounce of ability He gave me to do good in this world that is often so very bad.

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