And, I can honestly say I’m glad it’s almost over. I’m really looking forward to a fresh new year.

I have been hearing this a lot lately, how we should be grateful for trials. How we should thank God for each new challenge. How it will make us stronger. You never think that how the small things in life can mushroom into something much bigger than you could ever control. And, that’s the thing – we don’t control anything.

With 2009, from a personal picture, we have faced a lot that has caused us to look to the one who is control. Close relationships have been severed. I still feel mom guilt. Our decision for a place of worship ^[1] hasn’t been validated yet.

Yet, we still pray.

We still have hope.

I am convinced God will use us to be what He wants, not how others perceive we should be.

I believe in forgiveness. I believe in redemption. I believe in answered prayers. I believe we are allowed to hope because without that, in my heart there is nothing else that matters. I know 110% that my Rock will stand firm when I am shattered. God is good all the time, all the time God is good. I hear that – I see that – and I know that it’s true. No matter what challenge I face, it is well.

I listen to that song on high volume to make it sink in. I want my soul to be still so I can hear Him speak.

The world throws us curve balls. Um, I’m sorry Lord, but I’m not really a baseball fan. The balls hit me and it hurt. But, the bruises heal. Maybe that’s forgiveness? Maybe it’s just a matter of letting God take control – real control. Have I mentioned I’m a control freak? When it comes to this world, I’m confident that God knows what He’s doing yet I still want to give my $.02.

So, as 2009 closes, I am hopeful for what each new day brings. Whatever it brings. I will be His stubborn and beloved child.

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